Long weekend ready!

So we finally made use of the last of our wedding gift cards last night. We went and bought a tent and sleeping bag for this weekend's camping trip. We are not 'real' campers, and we've been borrowing tents for the last few years so we decided it was time to get our own. Here's out tent.

And yes...we are the dorks with the 'double sleeping bag'!
So as usual we will arrive without supplies for anything, except our queen sized air mattress! lol Our friends that we camp with are disgusted at our camping skills, they have the Coleman stove and every campfire accessory you could ever imagine. We are just hoping for nice weather so we can spend a little time on the beach. Last year it rained and stormed both nights, so this year we have 3 nights planned and hope for at least a couple of nice days. Should be interesting!

Only 2.5 days 'til vacation! Yay!

Our 'baby girl'

I just realized that I haven't had any posts about our 'baby'. Ella was abandoned by her mom at just over 3 weeks, and so I've been her 'mom' since then. She weighed less than 1/2 lb the day we brought her home, but now she's over 4lbs! She's crazy, and bites, and scratches, but we absolutely love her, and can't imagine what we ever did without her!

When we first brought her home.

Getting Bigger!

Always being nosy!
So cute!

A visit home...aka...baby land!

A quick trip home to visit with a friend who traveled the whole length of the country turned into a crazy baby weekend. First of all, it was a truly amazing weekend of gorgeous weather in one of the most beautiful places in the world (okay maybe I'm a little biased). But really...here was my view leaving on the ferry last night, my brother and his girlfriend were sitting by the water watching me leave.
But, the view wasn't the main thing I was there to see. I'm kicking myself for not getting pictures with Jenn and her little guy Coady, but I couldn't help putting a pick of them up here anyway, he's just too cute!

How absolutely adorable are they? Jenn is a close friend from high school who moved away about 10 years ago. She has since been married and had this gorgeous baby boy, and I haven't seen her in 7 years, it was so nice to visit with them, and i hope to go visit them sometime soon too.

Next on 'baby tour 2008' was of course my wonderful 6 week old nephew Noah. He's growing so fast, and I've been so blessed to get to see him so much. My brother has been doing a great job, and I love watching him being 'Dad'.


And last but not least, my final baby visit was with by friend Ellen and her boyfriend Stephen who just last Sunday welcomed Kieran Xavier into their family. It was a quick visit with them as they were heading to their family cottage, but it was so nice to check in and see how wonderfully they were doing.
So that was my weekend! Not to mention that as I know everyone who is TTC experiences, I was being 'stalked' by pregnant women everywhere I went! lol And had a phone call on the way home of another couple we know being PG. So much fun...

First real disappointment

So I've recently found out that perfectionists (that would be me) are prone to procrastination because basically, if you don't do something, or you do it half assed you don't have to worry about screwing it up. I think that's the way I've been approaching TTC. I gave up on charting mid cycle, or didn't push when my husband wasn't 'in the mood' when knew the timing was right. But this month, this month was was different. Timing was perfect, did the temping properly, everything, and it didn't work. So now, I'm trying to find a way to convince myself that I didn't really want it. Because you know, when I want it, it will happen. (yeah right)

So last night I bought my 2-pack of FRER, and like the idiot I am, I came home and used it immediately. Knowing full well that I had drank gallons of water all day, and there was no way it would come out positive, but I did it anyway. When I went in to check the test, I would have sworn there was the faintest little beginning of a line. But you know, I had drank to much water...'insert other excuses here'. But tomorrow, when I'm really prepared it will be positive. So going to sleep I was so anxious, it took me forever to fall asleep. I couldn't believe I'd slept through the night when my alarm went off. Confident this would be it (and complete terrified that this would be it), I was shocked when it was negative again. Temp stayed up, test BFN.

Okay, so I call this whole think 'So much to be thankful for', so guess I should look at things that way too. Obviously since I'm 13dpo with no AF in sight, I have a long LP, I've been told this is a good thing, right? Also, no worrying about 'fake drinking' on our upcoming camping trip. And some more time to keep working on this whole perfectionist thing. You know, working on not being a perfectionist, brings out the perfectionist in me too. Oh boy....Let's go AF, let's get cycle 6 on the road!

Busy/Big Weekend

So weekends have become gold to us, we are literally 'working for the weekends'. It's so hard to get everything done/see everyone you want to see over the busy summer months. Saturday we drove a couple of hours to Greg's family reunion where I surprisingly was only asked why we don't have kids yet twice. Thank God for name tags, because I didn't have a clue who anyone was. It was a beautiful place though, and for the quick couple of hours we were there it wasn't too bad. Lots of cute kids, and a boat full of booze (not kidding, the boat was the cooler, should have taken a picture!)
Then we had to hop on the ferry to head to PEI. Greg had a ball tournament, but his game was rained out Saturday night, and we also were waiting on news from one of our best friends who was currently in the hospital waiting for her new baby to be born. Sunday morning we got news that her beautiful baby boy, all 9 lbs of him, was born via section at 1:30 am!
Sunday was great too, church with my parents, then off to the ball field to watch Greg. We had a picnic in the park and my brother brought my new nephew Noah to meet us! So cute. Of course he tried to make me look bad by bawling the second I touched him, but he chilled out pretty quickly. He really is a great baby.
TTC? 11dpo, temps still up, scared of a BFN...terrified of not knowing! Testing tomorrow...I think!

Catching up

Trying to keep this blog going makes me realize how boring my life is! lol I can never think of I want to write about, although I'm pretty much busy all the time. Had a great weekend, relaxed night at the movies Friday, some visiting with family and friends on Saturday. Yesterday kind of sucked because DH had to leave for a week's business trip. But my sister came by and we spent some time at the lake, which I've realized I need to do a lot more of. I live in this beautiful community surrounded by parks and lakes and I never take advantage of it. That will be a goal for the rest of the summer!

In TTC news, I got cross hairs! For the first time. They are dashed, but they are there. I guess I'll have to wait and see how the rest of the week goes, but for now I'm 4DPO. I was getting worried that I wasn't going to O before DH left, but if FF is right we timed things perfectly this month. I know that doesn't guarantee anything, but I least I know we did everything we could.

I also love now that DH (even though we don't talk about it a lot) has got the baby fever too! We were out for lunch with some friends last week when I noticed this tiny little baby. The parents' were putting her in the car as we were going to the car. I didn't think anyone else noticed. But when we were getting in the car DH said 'that's a really small baby, ...we need a big one". Shocked that he had even noticed I said "Actually a small one would be fine for me". He explained that he didn't care what size it was in the beginning, as long as it's bigger later, you know, for sports and stuff.

Ahhh, the brilliant minds of men. ( at least I'm not the only crazy one thinking about babies all the time!)

Happiness is a journey

Funny how things seem to fall into your lap sometimes. Lately I've just been seeing so much in the world around me to remind me to slow down and enjoy the moment. It doesn't hurt than my family and friends are trying to help me do the same thing. My Dad sent this to me today and I had to make sure I put it somewhere I'd always be able to find it.

Happiness is a Journey

We convince ourselves that life will be better after we get married, have a baby, then another. Then we're frustrated that the kids aren't old enough an we'll be more content when they are. After that, we're frustrated that we have teenagers to deal with. We'll certainly be happy when they're out of that stage. We tell ourselves that our life will be complete when our spouse gets his or her act together, when we get a nicer car, are able to go on a nice vacation, when we retire. The truth is, there's no better time to be happy than right now. If no now, when? Your life will always be filled with challenges . it's best to admit this to yourself and decide to be happy anyhow. One of my favorite quotes come from Alfred Souza. He said: " For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin -- real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten throughout first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, or a debt to be paid. then life would being. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life. " This perspective has helped me to see that there is no way to happiness. Happiness is the way. So, treasure every moment that you have an treasure it more because you shared it with someone special, special enough to spend your time with...and remember that time waits for no one. So, stop waiting until you finish school, until you lose ten pounds, until you have kids, until your kids leave home, until you start work, until you retire, until summer, you could go on and on. You have to decide that there is no better time than right now to be happy. Happiness is a journey, not a destination. So Work like you don't need the money. Love like you've never been hurt. Dance like no one is watching. To find Happiness here on earth.

Canada Day '08

As we were walking to the fireworks on Tuesday night I realized that I need to keep better track of what we've been up to over our first year of marriage. Actually I'd like to continue to do it too. I was trying to think about what we did for last year's Canada Day, and that got me thinking about other holidays too. It's funny because the years are starting to kind of get blurry. This September we'll be together for 5 years, and trying to remember all those holidays is tough, so maybe through my blog, or maybe some sort of journal I'm going to do my best to record all the special occasions.

This Canada Day was really nice, laid back, and fun. I just vegged around the house for a while in the morning, 'cause G. had to work. Then I went to visit Carla at her place. We ended up going to pick up Hessian and got some ice cream, we took that down to the lake and just hung out. The sun was out and it was a beautiful night. G. came over for dinner and then we of course had to check out Neal's new Wii. We stopped into Bedford to watch the fireworks. It was a gorgeous night, perfect weather. But headed home pretty early as we had to work on Wednesday. Overall a great kick off to summer.