Welcome to the world Noah

With my complete lack of writing I wasn't able to put in up to date announcements, the biggest one being that I'm now an aunt! I've kind of been an aunt to my DH's nieces but I think there's something a little different when it's your own family. So very early on June 16th, weighing 8lbs 6oz, beautiful Noah John was born.

This is one of the hard things about living away from home. We are only 3.5 hours away, but it's a lot when I was just home for a wedding a couple of weeks ago, and we know we will be going for vacation later in the summer. So it looks like I'm going to have to wait a few more weeks to see him in person. For now I'll have to do with pictures and videos which my brother has been great at getting out to us.

Can't wait to meet him!

Time really flies...

I can't believe how much time has passed since I had a chance to write. Although I have been doing some actual journaling which has been a big part of my life lately. I've recently had a pretty hard uphill battle with anxiety and panic attacks. Looking back I can't believe that I've made it to this point, there were some scary moments, some long days and nights. But with the amazing support of family and friends I have been making some steady progress up this 'mountain' and am taking every opportunity to reflect and be thankful for the way things are going. Not 100% by any means, but I'm getting there.

The biggest support through all of this has been my Mom, I would not have made it without her, she was amazing, and continues to be. We've been talking everyday and she constantly helps me see that everything happens for a reason, so I continue to search for meaning in everything. My biggest discovery this week is that I have been looking for an end to all of this, instead I need to be looking at all of this as a process that I'm going through, and that is the reward. Learning new skills, finding appreciation for things I hadn't noticed, there are so many learning moments.

Who knows, maybe I'll even learn to blog more regularly...

Thanks Mom